Well, today is the last birthday in the family before mine. Unlike the other birthdays I am unable to be there. I know family members end up living other places but I have never gotten used to you being so far away. And never more so than this year. I felt a sense of desperation that you were so far away as Steve made this one life changing decision that forever changed us all. We talked about that a little in February, I so wanted everyone in one place. When you were able to change your schedule the relief I felt was overwhelming. Though still emotional over what was to come, I felt calmer and less hysterical. We would all be together. I could not imagine you not here with us.
While I know your life will continue to take you to new adventures and places, I still regret the distance of land and time between us. I miss your calm and healing presence, my sister.