Even though we didn’t talk about him much, he impacted us today. We are a close family but we don’t always spend days like mother or father’s day together. I guess we don’t feel the need to get together on a commercial holiday just because we are supposed to. We do cards, sometimes small gifts (mom always says not to get her anything but we don’t always listen), or we call. But we didn’t usually plan to get together.
But this year my sisters and I took my mom out to lunch. Funny, I am not sure we have ever done that for mother’s day before, or at least not for a very long time. I wanted to say to her “I am sorry”. Sorry that you lost a very special son. Sorry for this loss that we can never fill. I know my mom loves us all equally. But there is probably nothing we can really do on a day like today to make it better. I don’t think I even said the words “Happy Mother’s Day” today.
I guess my brother gave my mom black licorice and biscotti every year. Unlike a lot of men, he probably shopped for it himself. Last year I took him shopping so he could buy his wife a birthday present. Even though he could not get there without help, and he could barely walk, and he could not wrap it himself, he still wanted to shop and pick out the present himself. So my sister-in-law gave my mom some black licorice and biscotti today. That was so incredibly sweet for her to remember and think of my mom today.